So all of our big talk for the last couple of years is finally beginning to become more real. Our dream to get out of this one horse town is slowly becoming a reality. Two months ago Brady informed his job that his last day would be June 1, 2016. This is another HUGE milestone in our ultimate plan.
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| Our kitchen wall - before |
Over our July sailing vacation we came up with a plan to turn one of our main walls in our kitchen/living room into our planning room. We took down the collage of concert posters we have had hanging for over 5 years during this long and windy road of getting to where we are now only to replace them with a blank white board and calendar. This wonderful and amazing idea we had while on vacation became a reality and well, turned out not so amazing or as great as I thought it would be. The wall which once was filled with memories of the past was now washed clean and stark white, blank with nothing on it. One can say that this blankness is the unwritten, future experiences that we will have or our next chapter if you will. This is amazing to think about but all I could see was an ugly white blank wall of the unknown and this made me a bit scared and anxious.
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| ... and after |
After we began to write out what we need to complete by the time we leave on this next adventure I became more excited but even writing this right now I'm this feeling of heaviness on my chest and a pit in my stomach is slowly returning. Change, both exillerating and terrifying at the same time. This is the feeling that holds people back and as we were re-hanging up the pictures we moved for the white board and calendar to other places in the house I wanted it all to return back to the way it was just 30 minutes ago. This feeling, the feeling of unsettling, the pit in my stomach, I secretly love that feeling just as much as I hate it. It reminds me to keep pushing myself to cross off the next thing on my bucket list, to keep reaching for my dreams and without it I wouldn't be the person I am today or have the experiences I have had in my life.
I know I'm going to love/hate this preparation process and we are excited to begin this final step but it is easy to see why people stay in their comfort zones and don't branch out. We know that we may hate our new life and I find comfort in knowing that if this happens, which I really hope it doesn't, we can always come back but we will never know what is out there unless we go out and experience it. And I don't care but I'm going to be cheesy and add the perfect quote, well what I think is a perfect quote, that sums up this post...
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
-Mark Twain
Fortunately I have found a partner who believes in these words just as much as I do.
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